There come moments in life when all you require is solitude.
Your mind demands you of it and your respiration dodges if its not met. You take a seat in the darker side of the room, cup your face with your hands.. press your eyes.. trying to stop the pool they've prepared to dab your face with.. and resign.
The most unfortunate memories invade your grey cells, hitting their target.. being as brutal as never and mocks the guilty you house.
All you do is.. hold back.
That anger, that pain, that trauma which eats you within.. degrading your insides., burning your strength, killing the identity you own.
You stand up.. inhaling gusts of air.. faking a confidence.. begging yourself not to cry anymore and whilst this.. brushing out the disobedient tears which deceptively escape from the corner of your eyes.
You walk towards the window.. towards the brighter area of the room.. hoping that it may illuminate the darkness which contains you.. peep out through it.. allowing sun to touch the face that has the blemishes life gave to it..
And after a moment or so you shrink under your skin and crawl back.. Realising the depth of the tragedy you're in.. you resign.. resign again..
this time.. they come back with a force.. an undefeatable force that breaks you.. tear you.. thrash you.
With no one around to hold you.. you fall.. descend to the lowest of yourself and give up!
You cry.. for seconds.. for moments or hours or for an entire day..
lone you.. is abashed by the silence enveloping you..
you feel cheated, betrayed, used and thrown!
Then when your eyes dry out.. you stop..
tired and fatigued you get up.
Realising a bitter lesson you just learned you walk out with a head held high.. as if nothing happened.. you aptly mask your feelings hiding them from the people who gifted you these wrapped in sparkling wrap ups.. tearing your face toflash a smile you move on!

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